In my head

Hector and I had to make some stressful and difficult decisions yesterday. They were difficult decisions to make and the circumstances make me mad. Please parson my sour attitude as I write down what is inside my head.

1) It is ridiculous that health insurance isn't affordable to all Americans especially ones with small children. Health care is not a luxury but a necessity. The middle class who make too much for public aid but not enough to afford the 1000+ dollars a month in insurance fees still deserve health care. We have had insurance at 1000 dollars a month for three years which is more then my rent and is the only household expense that is excessive that I have no ability to reduce. Grrr!

2) People (especially women) need to talk about their worries with people who are outside the household sometimes for advise but mostly just to work through emotions. When said woman talks please don't make her feel worse but reminding her that "things will only get worse when the baby gets here" This remark is not helpful AT ALL. P.S. Children don't EVER make things worse.

3) I have babysat a few kids in my home for several months but now need to return to work part time. Why is it now necessary to talk about me behind my back and make me feel awful? It was not an easy decision to make but bills need to get paid, not to mention I gave them 6 weeks notice of my last day.

4) I suppose that this one is completely my fault but still... don't call me only when you are dealing with major turmoil or need something and then forget about me when things are going well. While I do care (even when I wish I didn't) all I can offer is prayer. I can not fix your problems any longer. Please know that decisions like that one can not be undone so think HARD about it.

When our stressed little heads hit the pillows last night I was really put to ease knowing that my children are sleeping perfectly comfortable in ignorant bliss over the stress that their parents have fought today. Childhood is truly perfect.